I am having one of those moments where I simply just miss my dad.

My thoughts all came to fruition this evening while watching Everybody Loves Raymond. Suddenly, it all makes sense as to why I stay up each night to watch this show from 11:30-12:30.

It makes me laugh out loud.

Of course, everyone in my family is in bed and fast asleep. Even all of my dogs are fast asleep.

But me, I sit here each night laughing out loud and all to myself.

As a kid, one of my favorite things in the world was to sit on the couch across from my dad, as he sat in his chair, and watch both him and the show on TV.

Quite frankly, my greatest memories were watching him laugh at the TV and not the show. I longed for those moments. They brought me so much joy. It’s funny to remember. As soon as someone said something really funny on the show, I would immediately look to dad to see if he was laughing. I did not want to miss out.

As I sit here tonight and remember… dang, I long for them again.

What I would give to go back in time and re-run one of these experiences as we watched Barney Miller or WKRP.

And now, here I sit laughing out loud to an empty room but for myself. It’s all good, though. Each laugh brings back a special moment in time that I will cherish for the rest of my life.

As I think more about this, I think… nobody ever could make me laugh like dad did. He had such a dry sense of humor, but dang… he was hilarious. To even think about how he could make me laugh brings a tear to my eye.

Dad was intensely private, But, once you got to know him… there was no doubt you would soon be smiling.

I love my dad and I could never write words that would describe how much I miss him.

All I have are these moments. And in them… I will take them as much as I can.